I've been on the verge of tears all day. I have no idea why. The way I describe my depression is it is like I am standing out side - the sun is shining and a wind is blowing but all I see is blackness. I can feel the sun or the wind. I can only see the darkness coming in all around me. That is how the past few days have been. I don't know what is wrong. I feel very alone right now because I am not sure where I can turn. I have so many people who love me, but I have such a hard time knowing who to talk to. Being friends with someone who suffers from depression is exhausting, and I don't want to wear down my friends by relying on them too much.
So today I have been trying to figure out why I am so sad. I have tried all day to just figure out what is making me sad and I can't name it. Which is making me more sad. So I am just gonna go to bed. Hopefully sleep and then speeding time with friends this weekend will pull me out of what ever emotional hole I have fallen into.
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